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Aug 6, 2004 15:44:40 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 6, 2004 15:44:40 GMT -5
i think now i have changed my mind. i think i'm glad i'm not freinds with retarded parrot. she's ugly, stupid, slutty, and fat. you can't get much worse than that. lol.
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Aug 6, 2004 19:33:08 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 6, 2004 19:33:08 GMT -5
i think now i have changed my mind. i think i'm glad i'm not freinds with retarded parrot. she's ugly, stupid, slutty, and fat. you can't get much worse than that. lol. now at having said that i feel like crying because it was so mean...
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Aug 6, 2004 19:34:42 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 6, 2004 19:34:42 GMT -5
now at having said that i feel like crying because it was so mean... she'll be glad i said it though. it will make her feel better about her decision of not letting me back on the board.
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Aug 7, 2004 7:50:45 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 7, 2004 7:50:45 GMT -5
hee hee i wish i knew why i was in love with sanna. this is so fucking weird. why am i obsessed with her? what the fuck is wrong with me? her skin is so nice, i love it... ::kiss kiss kiss...:: ::burried face in thought-up sanna's chest:: ::kiss kiss kiss...:: aw i love her. she is so sweet and smart and cuddly, and cute and personable. she is perfect. and she smells so good, i could hug her forever. i love her.
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Aug 8, 2004 17:18:48 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 8, 2004 17:18:48 GMT -5
i recently wrote this letter to a friend of mine about the way i've been treated on this board. feel free to add your comments. i actually am curious as to what some of you will say. before reading the letter i'd like to remind you and you will notice this if you read my posts, i said nothing hurtfull or unkind to anyone on this board until i was first turned on, disrespected and ignored by retardedparrot after i had tried desparatly to give her a christmas present and say thank you to her. and if you are wondering why i am writing this on here, it's becuase i'm being 100% ignored by her everywhere else i go. thanks...
hey, you know what you were saying about people fucking you over? i wonder what do you feel about forgiveness? should you forgive them? what if you feel that they are really truely don't deserve it? what if you feel their actions were completly evil? like this person i know who lead me on. i did act kind of weird around her becuase i liked her a lot. and she was my friend at first. but then she 100% turned on me. and started telling other people negative things about me behind my back so that they wouldn't like me and gang up on me. this was after i told this person how much i loved her and would do anything for her including give up my life for her. i couldn't believe she was doing those things to me. i mean the only other people who had ever done those things to me were my own family. my sister and my mother namely. no one else had ever done anything like that to me before my entire life. especially no one i cherrished and loved so much. why was this happening? why did it happen? what did i do to her to deserve it? can i forgive her now? i vowed as some of it was happening that i wouldn't and couldn't. is that person pure evil? what should i do? hope you can give some advice to this and understand sort of where i'm coming from. i'm really not sure what to do about this situation. and it truely has been bothering me. i thought about ending my life today and on and off for the past few months becuase of this. remember i did nothing to this person(or anyone else ever) to deserve what she did to me. thanks.
love genie
i also want to mention that i thought about ending my life last summer because of the way i was being treated by this person. i just want you all to realize especially this person(retardedparrot) that the way you treat someone can affect them. and words affect people very strongly sometimes but more than that, ignoring them and neglecting them affects them even more. i never did anything to you. you have no reason to keep on ignoring me and rejecting me. i've told you before, "i am a person too" and it hurts me just like it would hurt anyone to be treated this way. all i've wanted for the past year is for this abuse to stop. that's all i've wanted my entire life. i just want it to end already.
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Aug 8, 2004 18:34:55 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 8, 2004 18:34:55 GMT -5
i guess what i'm saying is i want to be freinds with you all and not be the "enemy" anymore. and if it is my time to leave then i'd like to be able to leave without everyone hating me.
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Aug 9, 2004 6:09:08 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 9, 2004 6:09:08 GMT -5
i miss sanna.
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Aug 9, 2004 7:31:24 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 9, 2004 7:31:24 GMT -5
god i hate this thread. i'd delete everything said on here if i could. i'm doing crank tonight. lots of it.
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Aug 9, 2004 8:25:11 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 9, 2004 8:25:11 GMT -5
wow i just had to accept that sanna's evil. or that she at least has problems and needs help. that was the hardest thing i've ever had to do my whole life. weird. i guess i just didn't want to believe it.
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Aug 9, 2004 8:38:09 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 9, 2004 8:38:09 GMT -5
sanna, why do you want to keep so much hidden from me? are you that insecure about yourself?
please answer.
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Aug 9, 2004 11:42:00 GMT -5
Post by Kamikaze Parrot on Aug 9, 2004 11:42:00 GMT -5
... Genie.
I feel sorry for you.
I just wish you the best.
I dont want you any harm.
truly
but you hurt me.
... cant you just move on with your life ?
instead of going on here and humiliate yourself ?
::hugs::
Take care
Sanna
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Aug 9, 2004 15:03:45 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 9, 2004 15:03:45 GMT -5
well i know i fucked you over sanna. but that's just me. i'm a fuck-up. out of curiosity, why is fragile labeled "sex dwarf"? lol.
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Aug 9, 2004 16:13:43 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 9, 2004 16:13:43 GMT -5
well i know i fucked you over sanna. but that's just me. i'm a fuck-up. out of curiosity, why is fragile labeled "sex dwarf"? lol. wait a sec. how exactly did i hurt you?
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Aug 9, 2004 22:49:29 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 9, 2004 22:49:29 GMT -5
this might sound weird but since i love you. it kinda gives me rights to make fun of you. like a sec. ago i was gonna make fun of how you're kind of a "message board nazi". for the simple reason that you kick people off. and you are one. but it's also something about you i like. the thing you don't get is, i know you. i know you weren't that hurt at me calling you those names earlier. you kind of just weren't phased by what i said at all anymore. i think you are probably numb to me by now. i know all the times you've cried by what i said. i know you cried really hard once but it wasn't really over me it was over yourself and how you felt like things in your life were too much to take(including myself). i know your whole body. i know every part of your entire body front and back like the back of my own hand. i could map it out and have a full you for myself if i wanted. i know where every mole or freckle is on your whole body. i know your hands and your feet and your face and your smile. i remember where every pimple was i saw on your face and when. i know your eyes. up close. and your voice, and you head. your hair and the way it smells. the way it feels when i kiss it. your lips and tongue. i love you. i memorized all of it. i know what you smell like and that you have no fillings in your mouth. the lines on the inside of your hands. my toe. i know your feet. your knees and arms. everything. and i love it all. i know i freak you out and this letter is probably freaking you out right now and part of you wants to cry. i know you. it's becuaes i've loved you. you're my friend and nothing will ever change that. and i know it freaks you out but you can't keep running away or trying to pretend i dont' exist becuae it's me in ten or fifteen or 20 years that's gonna keep you going. and when you all by yourself completely alone you'll remember i said this and you won't feel so freaked out by it. you'll feel better. becaues it's then and now. the rest of your life is over and you have to let go of all of that and go on in the future. becuae nothing in the past matters anymore. it's the future now and i'm in it with you and that's all that matters now.
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Aug 10, 2004 16:23:31 GMT -5
Post by genie on Aug 10, 2004 16:23:31 GMT -5
sanna if something's wrong please tell me. i won't bother you anymore i promise. i just want to know the truth.
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