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Post by genie on Jun 22, 2004 5:32:38 GMT -5
sanna why are you doing this? you know i'm not obsessed the only reason i stayed in sweden so long was because i didn't have any place to come back to. i didn't want to come back to my parents house. they want me to live with them and live the life they want me to live but i don't want to do that. i can't do that. i know i asked if sarah or whoever was a slut becuase of those pics. but that isn't that bad. i won't do something like that anymore i promise. every other time i "freaked" out on here is when someone was saying something mean to me or becuase you wouldn't tlak to me or woudn't let me come on here. i don't understand that. what did i do to you? why are you doing this to me? why won't you at least talk to me? why do i have to type the only words i get to say to you on here. freaken call me on the phone if you want. you know i never meant to hurt you. you know i'm not dangerous or obsessive. why are you doing this to me? every time i EVER did anything "mean" to you was when you first did soemthing to me. this isn't fair that you have taken this away from me. and for no good reason. you know i'm not gonna "freak" out and say anything mean. all i want. all i've wanted is to be able to tlak to you and be freinds with you. please talk to me. let me explain to you what has been going on with me and maybe you will decide it's ok to let me back on. i'm not the person you think and it makes me crazy thinking i can't even tlak to you and tell you that. i'm getting 100% fucked over. i'm not that person you are making me up to be. please talk to me and let me explane. you aren't being fair. please please talk to me. for the love of god. you haven't talked to me for the past 6 months. that is why i said the things i did. it's not fair. you went 6 months being mad at me for a reason i have no idea of. and won't talk to me about it so i can try to make it right. and now you won't let me come back on here becuase of reasons that aren't even real. i'm not obsessive. i'm not mean, and if you talk to me you'll see that. please talk to me somewhere. i didn't ever want to hurt you if that's what i did but i'm sure i didn't, i'm sorry. why don't you talk to me and tell me what's going on? please, that's all i'm asking. you are making no sense by doing this to me and blocking me out. tell me what's going on please.
genie
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Post by genie on Jun 22, 2004 10:25:00 GMT -5
i'm being abused by my parents. they don't listen to me. they never have. they have never in my whole life let me do what i want to do. when i went to college, it was becuase they wanted me to go. they thought it would "look" bettter for them to have kids go to school. i knew they felt this way so i went. when i left i wanted to try to find something to do that i enjoyed. i told them this and that's when i got a job. i wasn't sure what i wanted to learn. they told me to come home and live there but my father didn't want me there. i know he doesn't so i moved out. i did that for him. even though they told me to stay i did it to be nice. i want to move back in. i told them this several months ago. they said i either had to get a job or go back to shcool which i agreed to and they still woudn't let me move back in. i wnat to go to school and make something of myself, that's what i want now. now that i'm not doing something for them i finnally thought about it and that's what i want. it took me a long time to figure out but that's just becuase that is the way i am. i didn't mean for that to happen like that but it did. i'm just like that. now i can't go back to school becuase they won't pay for it. even though my mom tells me they will i know my dad won't. he has always hated me. no matter what i have done for him. and I'M the only child that likes him or puts up with him. no one else does. when i was in sweden i wanted to go back to school there. i know it's cheaper there and that is what i had planned when i was there. but once again i didn't get to do what i wanted. i had to come back here for them becuase they were freaking out. i did what they wanted. i've always done what they wanted. ALWAYS. everything i've ever done in my life was EXACTLY what they wanted when they wanted it. and i've never done what i wanted. never. and i've also gone out of my way to do what they wanted even when they were telling me to do something else just to be nice, just becuase i knew what they wanted. now they treat me like shit. now after all that. after 24 of basically being a slave to them. and yes they did take advantage of me as much as they possibly could, what do i get? nothing. how can this be possible? how can they be such evil poeple? they are. they want to fuck with my head. even though i was doing what dad wanted at the time and left, now he holds that against me and says that i shouldn't have done that and that is why i can't go back now. when he had advised me to come home to work i did it. he told me he could get me a job. when he didn't do that i didn't say anything, i just waited and then he talked down on me for not doing anything. i've known i had an abusive father for awhile. i always just tried to pretend it wasn't true and now i'm seeing it clear as day. my brother has been telling me stories of when he was little and my dad was drunk(as always) and emotionally abused him. how is it that i put 100% faith in this person for my ENTIRE life and now i'm getting fucked over for it. i've never done anything wrong to him ever and i'm the one getting fucked over. that is why i lost faith. it seems to me a father is supposed to love his kids or at least not make their life harder when you are doing everything you can think of to make his life easier. he fucked me over.
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Post by genie on Jun 22, 2004 10:37:51 GMT -5
i just realized it was becuase i was afraid of him. my fear is what kept him in control of me my whole life. i'm not afraid of him anymore.
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Post by genie on Jun 23, 2004 5:54:55 GMT -5
sanna please let me back on please? you know i don't deserve this. I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO YOU. i'm sorry i asked if that girl was a slut.
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Post by genie on Jun 23, 2004 6:03:00 GMT -5
you're not being fair sanna. i apologized for everything already. if you have a problem with me then don't use the boards as a means of getting even. i never did anything to you. and you know that. you know i don't deserve this. what is wrong with you? all i want to do is come on and read some stuff. what is wrong with that? why are you treating me this way? if there is something wrong then maybe i can help.
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Post by genie on Jun 23, 2004 6:33:38 GMT -5
please stop this sanna, please stop.
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Post by genie on Jun 23, 2004 10:41:07 GMT -5
sanna please stop doing this to me. if you're mad at me tell me why.
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Post by genie on Jun 23, 2004 11:05:33 GMT -5
you're a bitch! i'm getting the police envolved. your message board is going down and/or you're going to jail.
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Post by Kamikaze Parrot on Jun 23, 2004 12:37:20 GMT -5
you're a bitch! i'm getting the police envolved. your message board is going down and/or you're going to jail. Genie...
first... you cant expect me to read your messages at once when you post them. I cant read everything on here at once... and I cant be online 24 hours. I got a job... and I got other things to do as well you know...........................................
So now you have freaked again... just because I havnt answered your posts... because I didnt read them... and then you draw the conclusion that I AM A BITCH... because of it..
cant you see that is pretty disturbed ?
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Im sorry for the trouble you have had with your family and that you feel down.
I think you should go to a psychiatrist and get help. Because you need help...
Maybe you should try and move somewhere else away from your parents...
I dont think you should move out of the states though.... when you were here it was a disaster... as you should know...
I think you need to grow up and get the self-confidence of knowing that you can do all right without being dependent on others.
Get a steady job.. and an income. Some more structure and stability in your life . Right now.. you are just wandering about ... stop doing drugs if you can. They dont help you a bit. ::hugs::
I appreciate your apologies but you are obsessed with this page dear.
Anyone else would have walked away and done something useful instead of just banging their head against the wall.. as you do.
It remembers me of when you were banging on my door in the middle of the night.... now and then...
please genie.
you make me very sad
and I truly hope you get things in your life sorted out.
but I cant have you on here again.
You make me sad.
you make yourself sad... interpreting every fucking thing I do or dont do... as personal.
Please.
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Post by arumin on Jun 23, 2004 14:12:12 GMT -5
wow....now that was a disturbing read....
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Post by genie on Jun 23, 2004 15:02:28 GMT -5
Genie...
first... you cant expect me to read your messages at once when you post them. I cant read everything on here at once... and I cant be online 24 hours. I got a job... and I got other things to do as well you know...........................................
So now you have freaked again... just because I havnt answered your posts... because I didnt read them... and then you draw the conclusion that I AM A BITCH... because of it..
cant you see that is pretty disturbed ?
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Im sorry for the trouble you have had with your family and that you feel down.
I think you should go to a psychiatrist and get help. Because you need help...
Maybe you should try and move somewhere else away from your parents...
I dont think you should move out of the states though.... when you were here it was a disaster... as you should know...
I think you need to grow up and get the self-confidence of knowing that you can do all right without being dependent on others.
Get a steady job.. and an income. Some more structure and stability in your life . Right now.. you are just wandering about ... stop doing drugs if you can. They dont help you a bit. ::hugs::
I appreciate your apologies but you are obsessed with this page dear.
Anyone else would have walked away and done something useful instead of just banging their head against the wall.. as you do.
It remembers me of when you were banging on my door in the middle of the night.... now and then...
please genie.
you make me very sad
and I truly hope you get things in your life sorted out.
but I cant have you on here again.
You make me sad.
you make yourself sad... interpreting every fucking thing I do or dont do... as personal.
Please.
i know sanna. you are so sweet. really. and i hate to say it but i'm sure you know it's true, your freinds on here are assholes. case in point...arumin. you should tell them if they can't say something nice, don't say it at all. but i'm not really worried about them, when they get in the real world they will be slaughtered. so...keep you're freinds off my posts please...like i said unless they can say something nice. i have done nothing to offend any of them without first offering some sort of friendship so i really don't think i should have to take any more of their immature asshole way of abuse. you are a sweet person and far too kind. i've always respected you for that and loved you for it, and taken advantage of it too. i'm sorry for that. i have been feeling bad about that for months and trying to apologize to you and make you see that i wan't wanting to hurt you but i should have just let it go. i'm not that smart. i can't think through things when i'm caught up in a situation. i see now i should have just let it go. but i didn't know you, i didn't know how you would react. i couldn't think. anyway, thank you for listening to what i have to say and writing back. i really appreciate it. that's all i've wanted you to do for months, and try to understand me. but i know that's hard. please don't be too mad at me. i love you. you know that. i don't know if i can stop coming on this board. i can try, but that's all i can really say for sure. i will try to stop coming on here. i'm starting to get a hold on my life so i guess i won't need it as much. i will stop trying to hold on to you. you are a special person though. and others like me with problems will probably try to come to you too. to hold on to you. they might need you. i hope you have the strength and couage to deal with them as you have with me. i know you do. thank you sanna lunstrom. genie
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Post by Cupcake Avenger on Jun 23, 2004 15:16:58 GMT -5
oh please, genie, can't you see that by posting these obsessive posts you're not getting yourself anywhere?
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Post by Kamikaze Parrot on Jun 24, 2004 10:34:55 GMT -5
i know sanna. you are so sweet. really. and i hate to say it but i'm sure you know it's true, your freinds on here are assholes. case in point...arumin. you should tell them if they can't say something nice, don't say it at all. but i'm not really worried about them, when they get in the real world they will be slaughtered. so...keep you're freinds off my posts please...like i said unless they can say something nice. i have done nothing to offend any of them without first offering some sort of friendship so i really don't think i should have to take any more of their immature asshole way of abuse. you are a sweet person and far too kind. i've always respected you for that and loved you for it, and taken advantage of it too. i'm sorry for that. i have been feeling bad about that for months and trying to apologize to you and make you see that i wan't wanting to hurt you but i should have just let it go. i'm not that smart. i can't think through things when i'm caught up in a situation. i see now i should have just let it go. but i didn't know you, i didn't know how you would react. i couldn't think. anyway, thank you for listening to what i have to say and writing back. i really appreciate it. that's all i've wanted you to do for months, and try to understand me. but i know that's hard. please don't be too mad at me. i love you. you know that. i don't know if i can stop coming on this board. i can try, but that's all i can really say for sure. i will try to stop coming on here. i'm starting to get a hold on my life so i guess i won't need it as much. i will stop trying to hold on to you. you are a special person though. and others like me with problems will probably try to come to you too. to hold on to you. they might need you. i hope you have the strength and couage to deal with them as you have with me. i know you do. thank you sanna lunstrom. genie ok genie
glad you are getting some things sorted out
continue with that love
::hugs::
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Post by Cupcake Avenger on Jun 24, 2004 10:36:49 GMT -5
"maybe if they can't say something nice they shouldn't say anything at all"
the oldest quote in the book... and also the most false.
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Post by genie on Jun 24, 2004 11:11:03 GMT -5
so.... should i call the police on the bithc downstairs that keeps parking in my parking spot?
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